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October 11th, 2016

Literal Hell

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Last November I was In a back field that was surrounded by woodland.one minute I was tending to the horses and then suddenly I had a hand over my mouth and eyes. I was dragged round the corner, so that there was no way anyone could see. They tied something...
October 10th, 2016

When I Was 11…

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When I was 11 my mom met this guy named Jordan. He called himself 3D. Almost immediately he moved in with us. The psychical abuse started after a couple of months. He convinced my mother to start beating us and have us kneel on rice for hours at time as...
October 10th, 2016

Did I Deserve It

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A couple of months ago I went to London. I was there for two weeks staying in halls and knew no one. I was lonely. Having met him once before at a uni party, we’d liked each other and texted every so often. I knew he lived nearby and desperate...
October 10th, 2016

Not Okay

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When I was in my early 20s, I was travelling abroad with my then-boyfriend of 6 years, and during a one week stay in one city, we had started to make friends at this little dive bar that played really good music. One night, my boyfriend got particularly drunk, and...
October 9th, 2016

Never Thought It Would Happen To Me

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I am a rape survivor. I was in a relationship with this guy for about a year and 3 months in total. I thought we would be together for a long time. I thought he would never hurt me. I thought he would never do what he did. But yet,...
October 8th, 2016

The Fight We Can All Win

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On January 23, 2015, I came out and told my very own story, who I once called my father. It was the hardest thing to do, because I had never told a single soul. A year later and a new job later, I found someone I could trust who had...
October 7th, 2016

Bad Decision

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When I was 13, I began dating my best friends older brother. We were never sexual, but I would always stay the night in his room. We ended up breaking up, but I would always be at the house because of my friend. On the day that it happened, my...
October 7th, 2016

Piece

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I have no memories before rape. The first memory I have is being raped at 3 years old by my mom’s boyfriend and his dealer cousins. My first memories are of anguish and confusion. Broken trust and a broken body. That wouldn’t be the last time my mother allowed others...
October 5th, 2016

My Innocence Was Taken Away

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I am a rape victim. I was raped twice by a family member who is my cousin. It had happened when I was 11 year old at the year of 2005. It was summer break and all kids want to have fun with families and friends. However, my male cousin...
October 4th, 2016

It Happened More Than Once

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I was a rape victim for 4 years for two different people, here is my story. When I was 10 years old my mom had a good friend named Pearl, was like an aunt to my younger sister and I and like a sister to my mom so we called...
October 4th, 2016

F

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I was 17 years old i was a virgin I had this boyfriend for a couple of weeks and then he went to university in another city, i went to visit him and lied to my parents telling them i was going to visit a friend on The same city...
October 3rd, 2016

That One Night

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I can remember so many things about that one night so clearly. I went to have dinner at a friend´s house because we were going to the pub later to celebrate another friend´s 21st birthday. I was wearing a black dress. I usually don´t wear dresses when I go out....
October 3rd, 2016

A Story

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SUNDAY, JANUARY 23, 2011 The night prior marked the 21st birthday of a friend in the grade above myself. I helped him home, fending off his drunk advances, before returning to my freshmen dormitory where I slept alone that night. The sun rose the next day in Boston and last...
October 2nd, 2016

Feeling Alone

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When me and my best friend traveled to Vietnam this past summer, we met up with her old friend who is teaching over there. Me and this guy hit it off straight away and I spent the night kissing him. We went back to his house to smoke a little...
October 1st, 2016

Breaking Trust

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Last weekend after a party I went back to a friend’s boyfriend’s house to sleep, where I was given a double bed to share with a close friend of that friend. He’s someone I’ve casually slept with once before, a long time ago, and who I’ve spoken to at length...
October 1st, 2016

My Not So Happy Birthday

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I have ADHD and dyslexia.. Too bad of a combination.. As what those people who did it to me would say who would believe me when I’m not normal I was really hard to raise because well I’m not normal that’s why mom keeps hitting me..I could not forget it...
September 30th, 2016

Still Confused

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am eight years younger than my brother. When we were growing up he would often invite me to fight and play with him, in bed, on weekend mornings. When I was sixteen I had to leave the family home with mother and we moved into my brothers short term. I...
September 30th, 2016

Hollywood’s Lost Angels

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I was a starving actress in Los Angeles, trying to break into the world of movies and television. Like many other girls I was lured into the glamour and mystery of the Hollywood mansion parties. I was befriended by a famous in the 90s kid celebrity named “Gorey Peldman” who...
September 30th, 2016

Still Haunts

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It all started when I was quite young 8 years old..I was raped by my own cousin and not once every time I came to visit the house with parents he raped me..I was naive enough and at such a tender age I knew that something was wrong.. But didn’t...
September 28th, 2016

An Unknown Face & Hands

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I was almost killed. I never thought I would utter those words let alone write them on a public website like this. I’ve written here before but that was a while ago, about a rape that happened almost 3 years ago. It’s happened countless times in my life already, I’ve...
September 28th, 2016

Deserved What I Got

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I was raised in a strict Christian family. No boyfriends and no sex talk. It all changed when my parents got a divorce. The night the divorce was finalized my best friend and I went to a party hosted by seniors that I did not know. I was fifteen. I...
September 27th, 2016

Multiple Times

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I have been raped more than once. And unfortunately, some people start blaming the victim after the first time it happens. And unfortunately I rarely talk about this because it takes a piece of me every time I talk about what has happened. The first time I was raped, I...
September 27th, 2016

Innocent Faith

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In March of 2015 my boyfriend, my first, and I broke up. I met another guy who seemed great. We hung out. I had gone to his house for a few nights already and not once did he try to touch me. Then one day we decided to drink again...
September 27th, 2016

Darkness With Friends

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One day I was just chillin in my room texting a friend from school. Then I get these weird texts all of a sudden. My friend and I then text on another format of texting. We try to figure who’s texting me then we find out. From that day on...
September 26th, 2016

Feeling Alone

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This last February/March I was raped by someone I formally call my friend. After drinking too much one Friday night our friend group was hanging out, we all got up to walk down the hall to another room in our dorm when he grabbed my breast and pulled me into...
September 26th, 2016

Unhealthy Relationship

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I already knew this guy, he was a friend of my friends. One day we all hung out and he said he had feelings for me, and that those feelings have been there for quite a while. I thought he was the mos amazing guy ever by the way people...
September 25th, 2016

Wrong Choice

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This happened like 6 years ago…it was when i was young and stupid, going on drinking binges with my close friends. There was normally 5 of us, this night one of my girl friends left to go pass out, so it was just me and the guys. I thought it...
September 25th, 2016

Confusion

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I never really considered myself a victim of rape, I still wasn’t sure whether I am or whether I’m just being sensitive. The first time I was raped, I was at my friends birthday, I had been flirting with a guy all night and I was blackout drunk as I...
September 24th, 2016

I Was Told It Was Normal

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Three years ago, I was raped. It was by a man I had slept with consensually before after a night of drinking- I liked him, I was attracted to him, and he was someone from my inner circle of friends. But the night that it had happened, I had blacked...
September 23rd, 2016

The Silent But Haunting Wounds Of Rape

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I’ve been raped twice (I’ll write about my second rape later on). The first rape I was 17 yrs, traveling in Greece. I had to go by ship to travel between islands. One evening, I met a man on the ship, he paid me a coffee and we had a...
September 23rd, 2016

Rape

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I was raped by a family friend. Someone I thought I could trust. I was wrong. He kept me in a room at my mother’s home all night long. I felt like I was going to die, or I wished it at the time. I wanted to go to the...
September 22nd, 2016

I Own My Story

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This is my story. I own it. And I remind myself every day that nobody has a right to tell me that I didn’t live my story or that it didn’t matter. It has been 40 years since the day it happened. I was in 7th grade-that awkward place between...
September 22nd, 2016

Molested By My Cousin

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So…there is only one person in my life that knows this story and it is my best friend. I have told NO one else. I thought I would share because I know you all will listen and hopefully support me. I was molested by my 13 year old cousin when...
September 20th, 2016

Drugged

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I had been friends with K for about a year, hung out with him and his girlfriend, consoled his girlfriend after arguments, spent many a night on his couch. We were friends. He got me a job where he worked when I needed a change of pace. So, when I...
September 20th, 2016

The One I Trusted

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When I was in 5th grade, I had recently been traumatized with my friend Mario, as we had been knocked out and raped. As soon as school started, I distanced myself from every guy except for Mario and Kostos, a nice Greek/Mexican boy that lived across the street from me....
September 19th, 2016

My Own Family

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I was only eight when my uncle first raped me. It was horrible. I was crying. He told me it was just a game. I didn’t know what was going on. When he had finished with me, he would take me to the shops and buy me something to make...
September 19th, 2016

Am I Over Reacting?

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Hi…so…this is the first time I’ve ever said something about this. I’m not even sure if I’m going to post this or not. So, my story happened when I was around seven years old at a summer camp. I had noticed there was a pretty troubled eleven year old, who...
September 18th, 2016

Abused By My Cousin and Uncle

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I think growing up, I was sexually assaulted by my my cousin as well as my uncle, but sometimes I often ask myself if it was really sexual abuse OR not. When I was younger, about 7-8 I lived in a house with my mom, aunt, uncle, and cousins. I...
September 18th, 2016

Case Dropped by Prosecutor

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I was at a work party for my husband and a stranger drugged me, took me to an ally and raped me. I screamed so much he ran away but he came back an hour later with his friends and they burned me with cigarettes while they took turns. I...
September 17th, 2016

I Lost My Virginity

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My new boyfriend had taken me to his father’s warehouse way out in the middle of a rural area “to show me where his father worked.” I had on a plaid thick wool dress down to the knees, up to the neck, and down to the elbows. He got out...
September 17th, 2016

Victim Impact Statement

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I’ve posted here before, about the struggle and about how I had court soon. Court is over with. But I had to read my impact statement. Something I worked on for 3 months every night. I had to read it out loud so it had to be perfect. The entire...
September 16th, 2016

Childhood Abuse

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The first time I was ever sexually abuse was by a neighbor. He was about 14 I think and I was about 3 years old. I grew up on a farm with 15 acre of land wasn’t much to do, but for me there sure was. I would run around...
September 15th, 2016

My Abusers

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In my lifetime, I’ve dealt with nasty things. From getting bad grades, to getting therapy. One of my worst secrets are my assaults. The first one was in preschool. I have no memory of what my teacher did to me, but I remember somethings. I remember the little daycare I...
September 15th, 2016

Déja-vu

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There is a place near my house; a theater. When I was young I used to go to this theater often to watch movies with friends and family. It was a very classic place for my neighborhood. Everyone knew this place and would always go there to chill or to...
September 15th, 2016

I Never Told Anyone

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My name is Samantha. I was raped, and never told anyone, and I’m falling apart. I was molested by my step brother starting at age ten that escalated to rape when I was 11, a couple times over three months. I should have said something. Once, my step mother opened...
September 14th, 2016

Never Lose Hope

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Never lose hope. If you are being abused or have been abused, please seek help. Never give up hope. I love you and you matter. RAINN.ORG is a good source if you don’t know where to turn or need someone to talk to. No matter what you go through you...
September 14th, 2016

So Many Times

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I was always told how kind I was. Since a young age everyone told me that I had a kind heart. I feel like that’s the reason I have been taken advantage of so many times in my life. My kind heart made me vulnerable and naive to people who...
September 14th, 2016

An Acquaintance

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I was recently raped by an acquaintance. I allowed him to come into my home like he had been before. We had had a sexual encounter before and he always respected safe words, but this time he didn’t. He whipped me repeatedly, he put a belt around my neck and...
September 13th, 2016

It’s My Fault

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I was a sophomore, pretty innocent, a B student, I dated a senior. Bad boy, drug dealer. I found him exciting, intriguing, not boring. once we were kissing. I didn’t want to have sex that day, wasn’t up to it. But he got on top of me, took off clothes,...
September 13th, 2016

I’m Not Sure

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I’ve been broken up with my ex boyfriend for about a month, so I’ve been reflecting on our relationship a lot and I notice how a lot of the sex we had made me uncomfortable. During the relationship I feel as if I was in a daze and never actually...
September 13th, 2016

Never Ending

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It started back when I was in the 7th grade. I felt as if I was always being watched. I was. An older boy was always somewhere near me staring. I never thought of myself as attractive and I wasn’t interested in dating yet. Nothing major happened until the next...
September 12th, 2016

Help!! What Can I Do?

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I am 19 years old now. This takes place when i was 11 years old. In my school, there was a boy whom I thought was pure in heart, mind and soul. He was intelligent and good in sports. He helped me in studies. When I was sad he consoled...
September 12th, 2016

If I Were Stronger Then

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If I were stronger then, I would have left him after he sexually assaulted me in our mutual friend’s downstairs bathroom. I would have known that it was sexual assault. I would have told somebody. I wouldn’t have excused him by telling myself, “Hey, he could have inserted, but he...
September 12th, 2016

Sexually Assaulted

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I had just moved in with my boyfriend to his friends house he lives in with his girlfriend. We were told by another friend once how the two of them started dating which was by them cheating together on the girls boyfriend that she lived with that was out of...
September 12th, 2016

Disappointed

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I’m not entirely sure what guys want. If I text my boyfriend good morning and appreciate him when he does something kind, I can put a smile on his face. If I study hard and be respectful and loving, I can make my dad light up. If I work out...
September 10th, 2016

It Happens All Too Often

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After my first sexual assault, I wanted to talk about it. I wasn’t afraid to tell people. Maybe its because I had such a supportive family and they told me over and over again that I didn’t do anything wrong. They encouraged me to tell people exactly what happened so...
September 9th, 2016

I Thought He Was My Friend

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About 5 years ago I started hanging around a new friend group but there was a big change for me there were boys. About three weeks into being apart of this new friend group things started to change. Three boys started talking dirty to me telling me that I was...
September 9th, 2016

“You’re both minors”

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I had just turned 14, I was talking to this guy a couple years older than me. He was 16 almost 17. We had been friends for years but started to hang out more. One night we went to the state fair and went back to my house around 11,...
September 8th, 2016

Can Anyone Help?

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Hi fellow survivors. I’ve written on this forum a few times before trying to be encouraging to those who are struggling with post rape trauma and all the crap that comes with it, but I’m reaching out to you for support now. It’s been about 9 months since a stranger...
September 8th, 2016

Rape and Not Believed

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The second time I was raped was last year on my birthday and I was 14 years old. The morning of my birthday I went down stairs to see a note saying that my dad and brother were out and my mum and my sister were too. The day proceeded...
September 8th, 2016

Rape

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When I was 9 my favorite holiday was always Halloween, going out at night scaring and getting scared but it was more of a joke scare. But, Halloween 2010 was not a “joke scare.” My mum was sick and couldn’t take me trick or treating so my neighbor took me....
September 8th, 2016

Touching

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Ok here I go. About a week ago I was asleep when I felt something on my arm. It was my sister’s hand. She grabbed my hand and rubbed it across her private areas, then got on top of me and raped me. I am not reacting well to this...
September 7th, 2016

Friends Uncle

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I was about 11years old, I dressed like a boy and wasn’t very attractive. I had gone with my best friend to her uncles house with her. They said we weren’t going to stay very long. It was quite always from my house. We had already been there for a...
September 7th, 2016

MST

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It was a week after my 19th birthday when I was raped by a fellow Airman. I had been in the Air Force for 6 months and was doing well. I loved my job and my station. It was the night before Thanksgiving that year and my quad mates invited...
September 7th, 2016

I Hate You

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You left me at a crack house where he was waiting to corner me and take me to his bedroom. You were gone for maybe five minutes and he already had me. What’s worse! I tried to tell you when you got in the door, oh sweet ex of mine,...
September 7th, 2016

Stairwell

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Here’s a story that some of even my closest friends don’t know but in light of what is going on with the Brock Turner case and thousands of other cases we don’t hear about I feel like I want to share it… I was assaulted in college. Thankfully not even...
September 6th, 2016

What Should I Do?

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Everything is very dream like to me, but it all started when I was about 4 years old. At that age, I didn’t know what sex was. My dad was never home, and I was afraid of my mom. I just don’t understand why my own uncle would do that...
September 6th, 2016

Lessons I’m Learning Late in Life

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I’m a middle aged woman, divorced. I have been dating since my divorce, and have found myself “graped” 3 times within the last year. I was raised with the ideas that you can’t be in any way sexual around men (dress, makeup, eye contact, language, whatever) because they are basically...
September 6th, 2016

The Night My Life Got Destroyed

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I was foolish…my very close “friend” raped me with his friends it destroyed me. At that time i was 17 and he was 19 , we where friends ever since our childhood and we were neighbors-he betrayed my trust he betrayed our friendship. My mom made it clear on that...
September 5th, 2016

I Remember How It Felt

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I remember how it felt. The way he violently caressed my hips as he vividly pressured my body firmly onto his. I was innocently walking back to the parking lot to get to my car because the movie I was watching had just finished. The normal parking lots near the...
September 5th, 2016

Taken Advantage

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Writing this might be one of the most annoying things, but I think it might help me… To think I’m well in my 20s and I just found out hours away I was taken advantage of, it baffles me how me the smart, independent young adult didn’t realise before. To...
September 3rd, 2016

What Happened?

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There was a boy who I had went to elementary school with. I always had a crush on him. He was cute and popular and so many girls liked him. I would see him from time to time but it wasn’t until right before my junior of high school did...
September 2nd, 2016

I Feel So Bad For Him…

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The day before I started medical school this July, I went to meet a guy who had just moved to my town for a drink at a pub. I had been helping him find trails to walk his dog and seeing how work was going and offering him any advice...
September 2nd, 2016

Rape

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I live in a developed country, it’s pretty bad everywhere but i figure I have significantly poor look here. Spanning many Years, several occasions, several men, different in nature, same result, collectively took away pieces of me, pieces that I’m not sure what they are anymore. You people are the...
September 1st, 2016

Betrayal

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I only lived with my father growing up, one day he took me to a secluded cabin, I was about 12. He told me that there would be other kids there my age because it was a work party and his coworkers would bring them. Later on 2 more men...
August 31st, 2016

Raped in College

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I was 20 when I moved into my first apartment in college, I was date raped by my down stairs neighbor. I went to better myself with big thoughts of changing the world. I was drugged and raped by my down stairs neighbor. I tried to tell my best friend...
August 30th, 2016

Forgotten Memories Submerge

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I’m 21 years old, but my story begins from when I was 6 years old. My parents were not really involved in what was going on in my life, and simply, not interested. I was sexually abused spanning from age 6; 10; and 11. The incidents from when I was...
August 30th, 2016

Losing My Virginity to a Campus Rape

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My first night out at the bars in college was one that began with much excitement and anticipation. It was a freedom that I had never felt before. I felt old. I was in a new place with people who had absolutely no opinions of me. I was ready to...
August 28th, 2016

Bleeding Through My Tears

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When I was four years of age, my maternal grandfather orally raped me. I have taken many years to remember the trauma and many more years to heal. It is an ongoing process, I am winning, however not without Gods help. He, walks this journey with me and comforts me...
August 26th, 2016

Why Me Over and Over?

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I see stories of women being raped once when they are young adults or even teenagers and I kind of understand that was bad luck and that it could happen to anyone. I also hear stories of girls that were sexually abused when they were little and I guess that...